Mixed Emotions.

I'm being emo right now. Really emo.

I don't know why but ever since school started, there has been one thing in my mind that hasn't gone away. I shouldn't be thinking or obsessing about it, but I think I am.

I won't say what it is, but it's making me sad. I know I'm stupid for thinking about something that would make me feel sad, but I just can't get it out of my system. I guess I expect too much from it. I'm a sucker for this.

I'm babbling. Sorry.

Current mood: Why is it that we claim things on our own without letting other people know about it? And then, when that "thing" has something else that it wants, we get hurt and think that someone stole what we thought was ours but really, it isn't.

First Week. (And More.)

First week of college passed by. (For CS students and others. :p) So far, not too much assignments yet, but surely for the weeks to come, it won't be as relaxing anymore. Huhuhu.

Hmmm, it hasn't been terrifying (yet). I'm trying to listen very well to the teachers/professors. And time management during breaks, getting the hang of it. There's not much to tell yet since nothing much has happened. I kind of want to take the LRT home already because now, my dad's the one taking me to school and back. And oh how I wish I could learn to drive! Hahaha!

Anyway, after school yesterday, we went to Sta. Maria, Bulacan. One of my dad's customers invited him (with us) for a dinner party because it was the owner's 60th birthday. It was a bit fun and the salad was suuuperr yummy. Hahaha! But, my head hurt and I was really sleepy. @_@ We left at around 9 p.m. and we arrived home 45 minutes later. I fell asleep in the car and didn't even feel that we were at home already. @_@

Current mood: It's not so easy to say you love someone...especially if that person means so much to you. But once you do admit to yourself that you love someone, it's not easy to let go anymore...what's more is that you'll end up getting hurt by your own doing.

College Life. (So Far.)

May 26, 2008 is the day when my college life started.

At first, I thought taking up computer science would be great and really useful. And I still do. But, I didn't expect it to be this scary. @_@ I know I might be exaggerating even though we haven't really started discussions yet, [We start tomorrow.] but I lose my confidence right after seeing the syllabus and after buying the book/s needed.

From what I've read so far [from our reading assignment], I still have lots to learn about computers and all that. Most of it is really interesting but it kinda scares me to think that I have to study all these for quizzes, exams, homeworks, and many more. Plus, I'm scared even more because we still have to find out what our projects would be [and maybe some of the research papers, too].

I'm keeping this short for now because I still have to read 4 chapters. @_@ [Yey! Good luck to me. Hahaha!] I'll blog more when I get the time.

Ja, mata ne!